I was so angry with myself. And I hurt so many people. So many. Well, not that many but everybody I knew. So its a whole world to me.

And now Im still angry but I dont know about what anymore.

And it is like this anger is inside of me. Like theres something holding on to my ripcage and not letting go. I can feel it.

And I dont know what to do. 

 

And now what is there to do?

I mean I cant go on like this anymore. Hurting people. Hurting myself.

Lettinge my anger control me.

Because it is stupid.

So stupid.

And it makes me so lonely.

So Im just going to stop.

Or at least Ill try.

maybe.

Today is one of the hard days, isnt it?

Because today you have to be.

You have to think.

To feel.

To live.

Or at least something like that.

 

Today is one of the hard days

because its always there.

You cant say 'today isnt today'.

 

And today is one of the hard days

because you Arent here.

still.

and it still hurts and its still kinda hard

that youre not here

 

So today is one of the hard days

but it doesnt matter

because here i am

here we are

we'll never be able to do things tomorrow

or change things yesterday

 

so today is one of the hard days

and it is hard.

to live.

to think.

or trying not to.

 

but today is today

and it is my favorite day.